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We are all familiar with the term, “Palanca” and its importance on a “Weekend.” I have come to realize that Palanca is not an event occurring a few times a year—but rather a way of being, a lifestyle that can be experienced or offered anytime, anywhere and for any length of time. Sometimes in comes in spurts and sometimes it is dormant for years until circumstances align and we are called to respond and model the self-emptying love of Jesus. Sometimes, we are the one offering Palanca and at other times we are the recipients of the power of God’s love and sacrifice in action. In rare circumstances, the two are happening simultaneously.

I have spent the last four years being responsible for an elderly aunt. The past year has been a challenge, primarily due to the fact that my aunt lived in NJ. I could always count on a minimum 90-minute ride (one way) provided there was no traffic. Typically, it could be two hours or more. During these past 15 months, my aunt’s needs were becoming more obvious and time consuming. The energy I was expending was not being replaced in equal amounts. My anxiety was curtailed by a friend who lived 6 miles away from my aunt. Initially, I could count on her to check in with my aunt and do food shopping for her.

As my aunt’s health deteriorated, my friend offered me to stay at her apartment instead of commuting back and forth from New York to New Jersey. She listened to my frustration and kept me well fed. Finally, in the midst of what was to be the beginning of the end for my aunt, my friend took charge as I was sick with fever, bronchitis and sinusitis, unable to drive from Queens. In a dramatic turn of events, police had to break down my aunt’s front door in order for the paramedics to take her to the hospital. My friend followed the ambulance to the hospital and, once in the Emergency Room, asked the doctor to call me.

In the meantime, the dam broke as I sobbed unconsolably for an hour. My helplessness reached its peak. I had given everything I had in me to be in service to my aunt and at that moment I was spent. At the same time, God provided me with a generous, competent, funny and, at times, irreverent angel in the person of Mari-Celeste Massaro. Mari-Celeste had recently served as caregiver to a friend who had recently died and now, she was     sacrificing for me. Despite her grief, she saw me through my agony. It dawned on me that this was Palanca and it was perpetual. Palanca is not about a Weekend of simple sacrifices— it’s about responding to the messiness of life and death, time and time again over the course of a lifetime.

As we celebrate Christmas, the Incarnation of our God, let us remember that God is with us in the messiness and confusion of life. Jesus chose perpetual Palanca from his birth in a stable to his death on a cross and everything in between.

 

She brushed the snow off her gray wool coat as she hurried into her apartment building lobby. The doorman greeted her with a warm smile and she returned the greeting as she made her way up the three flights of stairs to her apartment. She could smell the freshly baked scent of sugar cookies fill the air, as she guessed this delightful scent was coming from Mrs. Granger’s apartment. Christmas was tomorrow and she felt the holiday spirit all around town. Mr. Linden, the butcher, had given her an extra piece of ham, as he made jovial small talk in his tiny store. Mrs. Jennings, her close neighbor, offered her a warm knitted scarf as a gift for this festive holiday. And a warm thought crossed her mind, as she remembered being in church the past Sunday and the pastor giving out sugar canes to the children. 

She unlocked the door to her small railroad flat and hurried inside. It was warm as the pipes hissed the sound of heat coming into the flat. She took off her wool coat and her hat and glanced into the foyer mirror. Her long blond hair was ruffled and she could see that her blue eyes looked tired. She had just passed her thirtieth birthday, with a big party her parents had given her. It was a festive party, with relatives, birthday cake and presents. She was truly blessed. Now all she had to do was find a husband and her life would be complete, she thought, as she made a pout smile into the mirror as it reflected back at her. She giggled to herself like a child, as she thought about tomorrow and the kinship she felt with her family. 

Yes, it was a special time of year. Tomorrow morning she would gather up the small gifts for her parents and visit them for a special turkey dinner with all the trimmings. Her mother always made Christmas very special, since Mary was a little child, she had fond memories of many wonderful holidays. Her mother will no doubt have those special chocolate candies, the ones with delightful white sprinkles. Then a sudden thought of sadness rushed through her mind. What about those who can’t afford Christmas? What about those families who are seeing hard times? She had heard that many families were going to gather at the food kitchen on Bleeker Street for their Christmas dinner. She prayed the butcher and other storekeepers were especially charitable to those folks. She knew, however, that this was all in God’s competent hands and such matters are better left to the, “Big Boss.” But she couldn’t help feeling fortunate. She had a decent job at Kaufman’s law firm assisting the owner, a roof over her head, and food on the table. Many were not as fortunate as she was. What could she do to help those in need? She truly wanted to help those who were not as fortunate as she was. After deep contemplation, Mary decided to go out to the food kitchen at the other end of town and see if she could help in some way. She went to her cupboard and saw that it was sparsely stocked. But nonetheless, Mary grabbed a jar of strawberry preserves her mother had given her, dropped it into a bag, grabbed her wool coat, her scarf and hat, and darted out the door and ran down the three flights of stairs.

She hurried outside and into the snowy cold air as she made her way through the cobble stone street to the trolley car that just happen to stop simultaneously as she stepped onto the curb. She made her way in and noticed an old man stooped over, barely able to hold onto the trolley pole, as it made its way through the snowy cobblestone streets. She couldn’t help noticing he had a terrible disgruntled look on his face. His black tattered coat was well worn, but clean, and his boots looked as if they saw better days. He did, however, seem to have a new black scarf wrapped around his neck. He was mumbling about needing to get to the general store before the store closed,   making hand gestures as he thought out loud. How odd, she thought, that this elderly man is brave enough to confront the elements to get to the grocer on Christmas Eve. And she thought she heard the word preserves, but might have been mistaken. He must really be in need of food and maybe he is poor and lonely, she thought. At that very moment, her eyes met his. They were dark, lonely, eyes that spoke to her. She could see the pain of years of loneliness. She could also see in his eyes the glaring power of a worried look. He has seen very hard times in his day, she thought. She had this gift, the same one her father had, where she could read peoples eyes; not all the time, but most times. She could tell this man was not happy. She smiled warmly at him hoping that he would feel the spirit of the season and for a brief second a wry smile appeared on his face and then disappeared as he made his way off the trolley. Mary decided to follow him to the grocer and see what he needed. Maybe she could help one individual    tonight instead of going to the food kitchen where folks were sure to be helped. She didn’t have that much money on her, maybe twenty-five cents, but that did not deter her from her charitable mission.

She hurried off the trolley and made her way towards the general store, on a mission of mercy. She felt the icy cold wind sting her face and the stone cold pavement against her boots. She was happy to step into the store where it was warm and dry. She watched as the old man made his way around the store and she saw him pick up a few items. He put a small ham on the counter, along with bread, and a jar of strawberry preserves. It looked as if he would have bread and preserves for Christmas breakfast and ham for dinner; a sparse breakfast indeed, she thought. 

The storeowner, a burly looking man, made some small talk with the old man as he announced that the total of his purchase was fifty-nine cents. The man put his hand in his pocket and came up with forty cents. “You are nineteen cents short,” announced the storeowner who did not seem to have a charitable bone in his body. “Times are hard for all of us” he continued. “I could give you credit, but you already owe me twenty cents from your last purchase. I am sorry.” The elderly man looked embarrassed and upset as he decided to put the strawberry preserves back on the shelf. 

Mary could not believe what was happening, as she reached into the bag and handed the man the jar of strawberry preserves. “Please take this,” she said. “It is my gift to you for Christmas.”

The elderly man looked quite puzzled and for an awkward moment there was silence. He then responded by saying, “Dear lady, who are you and do you always walk around with a jar of strawberry preserve in your bag?” The man seemed very confused. 

“No, actually I was on my way to donate it to the food kitchen, but I found a better use for it so please take it,” Mary replied. 

The man was puzzled by this sudden turn of events and felt as if something much more important was taking place at this very moment in time. He felt a warm spirit of generosity and it was piercing his heart with much comfort. He was reluctant to accept the gift, but he looked into the young ladies eyes and could see that it meant more for her to give the gift than it meant for him to receive it. He could read her heart, it was a gift. 

After a few uncomfortable silent seconds the elderly man smiled and said to Mary, “Dear lady I will accept your gift and say thank you. This is very kind and generous of you. Merry Christmas and God bless you.”

Mary felt this sudden feeling of luminescence fill her heart with joy and she gave a silent thank you to God for this glorious encounter. She smiled warmly at the elderly man and chanted, “Merry Christmas to you and may God bless you abundantly.”

The man walked out of the store with a look of bewilderment on his face. Mary turned to the storeowner and said. “Here is the twenty cents the man owes you.” He looked at her, scratched his head, took the money, and walked to the back of the store where a woman was beckoning him to come and help her with her purchase. 

Mary walked out of the store feeling the spirit of Christmas all around her, but most of all within her soul. Her heart was filled with His peace and joy. This was what Christmas was all about, she thought, as she got back on the trolley car. It was about giving, caring and sharing. It was about love; the kind of love that is unconditional for all humanity, not just family and friends. It was about being human. 

She knew she would probably never see this old man again. She didn’t even know his name, but she did know that the two of them connected into a spirit of generosity and kindness tonight on this special Christmas Eve, and no matter what happens in her lifetime, that will always carry around in her heart. 

 

I have always prayed for the success of the candidates before working on a Cursillo weekend – that they be as ready and receptive to our program as we all are. I am sure, I have never seen a Cursillo weekend start off as smooth as the 232nd did. It is possible that the Team members, the Angels, Spiritual Team members have experienced that, but I have not. For me, the weekend always seems to start off with a great deal of uncertainty (and a bit more apprehension) than I witnessed on this particular weekend.

Nevertheless, I knew that this weekend would be extraordinarily special for me. My son, Matthew, was making his beautiful Cursillo weekend. Personally, I started my day going to 9:00 AM Mass to pray for the Men of the 232nd Cursillo. I found myself picking up dry cleaning after Mass, holding hands with Charlie, the owner, praying for my son and all the Men of the 232. Yes, Thursday morning started off pretty good so far. Realizing that Matthew’s weekend would be in God’s hands, I knew I would have to distance myself from feelings, questions, or involvement with the success or failure of his experience. “God, You got this,” was going to be my mantra.

I left my home at 3:00 PM to pick up one of the candidates who, unfortunately, was experiencing car trouble. After scooping up Ray, I met with Angel Tim out in Farmingdale, to have dinner before heading up to Huntington for the start of the weekend. As I walked through the doors of the Immaculate Conception Seminary, Rich Grillo (our all-knowing loving oracle) was seated at his post at the Greeter Table – and the miracle begins. I was embraced by Steve Hernandez, who told me that we would be working a table together: the St. Joseph’s Table. Steve was a candidate on my table when he made his weekend. Our packets, with schedules and instructions, were handed to us – our table candidates were revealed to us. Brian Cavallo, our Rector for this weekend, delivered a message that began ringing in my head. He was dedicating this weekend to his recently departed-for-paradise Mom. This was my first WOW.

It struck me that it was a great team of horses being led to the starting gates of the Cursillo Derby. An amazing Angel Team was assembled; an amazing Table Team was assembled; an ALL-STAR SPIRITUAL TEAM was assembled with Joe Amato, Bob Monahan, Tom Butler, and super star Jimmy Barker. Our person holding the lever to begin the race into Jesus’s arms was Fr. Richard Zuk, who was with us the entire weekend. Fr. Rich blessed us with his undivided direction, love, wonderful warmth with faith, and his spectacular, contagious, contagious SMILE. My second WOW…

Most important was the weekend Candidates. These men were the Jockeys on their spiritual horses. Some, as on every weekend, reluctantly mounted their spiritual horses awaiting the start of the 232nd Cursillo. Once the lever was pulled (and especially I), we were off with these men, riding us into the arms of Jesus. Fr. Zuk joked at his first Mass for us that, “Maybe you will be drinking the Kool Aid.”

My gosh, by midday Friday (to my complete astonishment), my table with Steve Hernandez was beginning to show signs of being on fire. Steve and I looked at each other, shrugged our shoulders, and said, “So it begins.” We looked around at the other tables and, sure enough, the whole room was buzzing. After Reactions on Friday night, I was overwhelmed with how receptive the Men of the 232 were. THEY ALL COMPLETELY TOOK OFF FLYING DOWN THE TRACK TO JESUS’S ARMS. Thank you once again, Fr. Zuk, for pulling that lever that allowed this amazing spiritual group of men to want this gift we were presenting to them, and for us to witness it so early in their weekend. This truly is what we (on this God given mission) pray for, yet it was happening so soon. I had an overwhelming sense of gratitude, as did (I am sure) all of the Team on this Cursillo mission. When all our Men of 232 stood and gave Fr. Zuk a long-standing ovation at the final Mass of the weekend, it was the cherry on top of the closing Sunday.

On a personal note, I thought I would lose it emotionally many times on the weekend as my beautiful son was fulfilling a lifelong prayer of mine in making a Cursillo. I managed to contain myself right up to the last moment when Jim Barker presented my Matthew with his final gift of the weekend. All Cursillistas know what that gift is.

IT’S JESUS IN OUR LIVES  – My Lord Jesus, You never fail me = WOW WOW WOW

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Last fall, I thought it might be nice to try to upgrade the landscaping in my front yard with the purchase of a small tree. The attached card said that it was easy to care for and it would bloom all summer long with an abundance of white flowers. Gardening is a favorite pastime of mine. It makes it seem as if I am closer to God and I am reminded of His presence as I arrange His beautiful flowers and plants. This little tree was just what I was looking for and I carefully planted it and looked forward to the color and beauty that it would bring this spring. 

As the calendar turned to May, when all the other shrubs and flowers were beginning to bud, there was no sign of life in the new tree. I checked it each day and came away convinced that it had not survived the winter. I was disappointed and I planned to dig it up and discard it. I went to several nurseries in an attempt to purchase a    replacement, but none were available. I was resigned to the probability that a replacement would be hard to find and I would not get to enjoy the natural beauty that the tree would have provided. 

Suddenly, about the third week of May, I noticed the tiniest sliver of green on one of the branches. This fragile creation of nature had survived after all and was coming to life! 

As I have watched it slowly generate its leaves and begin to flourish, it has made me realize how easy it is to give up prematurely on something that is important to us. Have you ever begun to doubt your prayers for a special  intention because time had passed and you did not feel that God was going to grant it to you? Did you ever wonder why an all merciful and loving God would not provide an answer to your prayers? I have. 

My prayers have been offered over a period of years for a special intention that is very special and personal to me. There are times when I have sat in a chapel and just tried to listen for an answer, but heard only silence. It has been long enough that my hope has begun to  waver. Maybe the Lord has other plans, but I   cannot imagine what they might be. So, I go on and continue my prayers, but each day it seems that I feel more discouraged that the Lord may not bring me what I so want Him to. 

As this small tree in my front yard continues to grow and thrive after I had given up on it, it has encouraged me not to give up on God either. He may not    always give us what we want in the manner and the time frame that we would like, but, just as this tiny tree has renewed itself, so too, will answers to our prayers make themselves present in God’s time.  

This is the season of year when we are surrounded with the splendor of nature as the flowers and plants come alive in all their vibrant colors. It is also a time to  renew our faith in the mercy and love of our God and be confident again that He will minister to us and comfort us in our needs. My pretty new tree will be my   constant reminder to never, never give up on God.  

 

It took probably fifteen years and three different people inviting me to my Cursillo. If I have one regret… it is that I should have acted on the invitation extended to me fifteen years ago!

I will tell you that this Cursillo has changed me spiritually and aligned me more with God and His Son, Jesus. Four days retreating from a world that has    pretty much turned its back to God and Jesus,  affords one the privilege to truly know thyself, and allow God to enter and permeate your heart, mind and soul, with His abundant love and peace. I believe that this is the perfect way to live our lives in a very imperfect world.

The Cursillo way of life is abundant with love, trust,    forgiveness, patience, generosity and hope. Living in that consciousness with like-minded and spiritually  immersed people demonstrates the way that an all-loving, all-knowing and all-forgiving Father designed and intended for each of us to live. A life filled with eternal hope.

What an incredible spiritual awakening and life altering event! What a blessing! Thank you, God!

DeColores, Bob Oerzen #232

QUOTES FROM THE MEN OF CURSILLO # 232:

“It’s more than I could ever have imagined. Enlightening!” – Bryan Jones

“Life will never be the same again.”  – Pat Motherway

“Cursillo meant friendship in Christ with people who are all broken and striving, like me.” – Robert Russell

“Outstanding experience. A chance to find my peace.” – Peter LaTorre

“A moving experience! Worth the time and effort. Built new friendships.” – Frank Anderson

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hope 

I glanced at my nightstand and picked up my Bible. I blew the dust away. Has it been that long since God has spoken to me through His word? Has it been that long since I’ve listened to David the Psalmist cries for mercy, or John’s words of light for the world? How can I survive this turbulent world without the love of God guiding me along life’s rocky terrain? There is no peace in this world, only in the world that is unseen. The world that lies between our mind and our heart. This soulful world is full of God’s peace. Had I forgotten that? My father once told me that the answer to all of life’s problems are contained in the Bible. These are words of wisdom I live by. How is it that I forgot this wonderful truth?

I opened the Bible and started to read. 

“You are of God little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you, is greater than he who is in the world.”

1 John 4:4

I anxiously searched for more.

“For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39

I was now engrossed in finding the answer to all of life’s problems. I wanted a clue to make the world a better place to live in. I knew it was there and I wanted to reveal it. Then, I stumbled across this quote.

“You shall love your neighbor as yourself”

Matthew 19:19

There was my answer in this one little sentence filled with the wisdom of all the ages of great poets, sages and of course originally from Jesus. If we all loved our neighbor there would be no wars, no    terrorist, no hate crimes, no slander, no abuse, no fear to walk the streets at night. There would be peace, love, joy and contentment in the world. There would be unity, freedom, and justice. There would be no starvation. It would be such a perfect world. It would be the world that God intended it to be. It was so simplistic.

The dust is now clear from my Bible and doesn’t accumulate any more. Because I know that I can’t  survive this world without the Light of Christ that guides me through the darkness on this journey that beckons me to find more answers.

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May, the month which reminds us of the beauty of the earth, with flowers and fauna in full and gorgeous bloom. 

We are beckoned to enjoy the scenery and the weather. 

May, the month of celebrating mothers, grandmothers, great grandmothers, foster   mothers, adoptive mothers, Godmothers.  

This is the month we celebrate Mary the Mother of Jesus. Mary who has been a role   model for many of us.  

Mary who models for us a loving way to be a parent. Her patience with Jesus when he was lost and then found in the temple preaching.

Mary modeled for us unconditional love. The joy of sharing good news with her cousin Elizabeth who with Mary was also about to become a mother.

Mary modeled for us the concern she had for the newly married couple at the Wedding at Cana. 

When in prayers I reflect on Mary and her humanity and her humility and her goodness, on her many joys and unspeakable sorrows in her life. 

I always have to remind myself that Mary is not a statue or a painting of a woman with a beautiful face. It was she who was Jesus’s mom, his caregiver, a flesh and blood parent to our Beloved Jesus who loves us unconditionally.

For those of us who no longer have earthly mothers, we need to remind ourselves that Mary is always with us and resides in our hearts as our earthly mothers are always in our hearts.  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Gratitude: Discovered Blessings:

I am so glad that I was reminded by Darlene that Wednesday is meditation night. It was powerful, and I truly felt Jesus reminding me how blessed I am with all of the people that are in my life. In the last year, I had some difficult moments and, during this meditation, I really realized how I am so grateful, thankful, and blessed. God has brought so many people to help me become who I am today.

During the meditation call, we were told to open up to Jesus, hold hands with Jesus, say what is on our heart/mind. I did share with Jesus. Jesus replied with, “Kerri, keep being you— everyone who knows you loves you, and you are my child. Go out and spread the good news.” Jesus also reminded me how I should count my blessings in life.

After the meditation (during the zoom call), I wanted to share first because I felt such a  connection. I shared what I just told you— what Jesus said to me during meditation. I’m so thankful for so many things in my life. God really knows what’s best for me, and I  appreciate all of the friends that I’ve made from the Cursillo family and the other Church organizations I belong to. I loved how I got to really spend time with Jesus that night—one to one— holding hands and blessed to have gotten that special hug from Jesus. I was also reminded that.

“Be who God meant you to be and you will set the world on fire.”

― St. Catherine of Siena

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

After two years, we were able to gather for a weekend for women who are familiar with the Alanon Program. Twenty-eight beautiful women accepted the invitation to a weekend experience that was founded in 1982 for all women affiliated with Al-anon with a clear understanding that it is a place that we associate God as our Higher Power and the talks are God centered. It is a place where you can speak about your faith and love for Jesus. It is not necessary to have experienced a Cursillo; the invitation is there for them but not a requirement.

We met to pray, discuss, reflect on the theme, “The Serenity Prayer.”

The Serenity Prayer is a petition to God asking for calmness and peace in all matters of life. It asks for strength and courage to alter the matters within a person’s control and for acceptance in matters which cannot be changed.

The talks were centered on the three main points of the Serenity Prayer: Acceptance, Courage, Wisdom.  The women from our team provided inspiring talks and prayers throughout the weekend.

Msgr. Joe Calise joined us on Saturday with a grace filled talk inspired by the theme of the weekend, followed by confessions, and mass.  It was a special time for us to have him in our company.

The weekend started with prayer and the prayers continued along with sharing of ourselves and with each other. Volunteers arrived on Saturday afternoon to offer their services in healing treatments. Also, Certified Spiritual Directors were available for one-on-one sacred listening; there was opportunity to take a walk, spend time in quiet mediation in the chapel, and we also had our “book store on wheels” available for the women to purchase a spiritual sentiment.

Some of the women have made statements regarding this weekend:

“Loved the theme of the weekend; Wonderful being together again; Loved the new retreat center.”

“Breaking down the Serenity Prayer allowed me to look at the prayer in a whole new way, new insights to the strength of the Serenity Prayer.”

“Incredible, well organized, everything I heard I needed to hear.”

“Loved the talk from Msgr. Calise, his talk was very honest and heartfelt which I could relate to – helped me reflect on difficult issues.”

“Excellent program designed with truth and inspiration to attest to the power of God in our every moment.”

“Wonderful “family” feeling; Wonderful loving team; Awesome, perfect, excellent.”

It was a wonderful experience to be together again, in a beautiful new retreat center, filled with many graced moments.  God’s loving presence was there, and we are blessed and grateful for the experience.